My color personality results

So I took this quiz and its scary how acurate most of it is. Try it and see for yourself!

Free personality analysis of Your Friend.
Generated on Sat Sep 13 08:52:02 2008.

Your Friend's Existing Situation

Volatile and outgoing. Needs to feel that events are developing along desired lines, otherwise irritation can lead to changeability or superficial activities.

Your Friend's Stress Sources

The existing situation is disagreeable. Has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and to stand out from the rank and file. Her control of her sensual instincts restricts her ability to give herself, but the resulting isolation leads to the urge to surrender and allow herself to merge with another. This disturbs her. as such instincts are regarded as weaknesses to be overcome; she feels that only by continued self-restraint can she hope to maintain her attitude of individual superiority. Wants to be loved or admired for herself alone; needs attention, recognition, and the esteem of others.

Your Friend's Restrained Characteristics

An unadmitted lack of confidence makes her careful to avoid open conflict and she feels she must make the best of things as they are.

Insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic, but needs reassurance and encouragement. Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense.

Feels that she is receiving less than her share and that there is no one on whom she can rely for sympathy and understanding. Pent-up emotions and a certain egocentricity make her quick to take offense, but she realizes that she has to make the best of things as they are.

Your Friend's Desired Objective

Suffering from the effects of those things which are being rejected as disagreeable, and is strongly resisting them. Just wants to be left in peace.

Your Friend's Actual Problem

The need for esteem--for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for herself--has become imperative. She reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an impersonal or minor role.

Your Friend's Actual Problem #2

The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants drives her to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that she may categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration becomes her method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of futility.

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Where I've been...

I finally left STC, Sunday, August 23rd was supposed to have been my last day, but some personal matter had came up early that morning. I do some crazy things at times, so crazy that outside people would never believe it if I told them. (Nothing illegal) Anyway, rewind<<<<<<<>>>>>>August 25th was my first day at the Academy at Correction Corporation of America (CCA) at D.C.'s Correctional Treatment Facility (CTF) . I said what I did my first day of College. I said to myself, "What have you gotten yourself into?" I saw everyone I had worked with during my internship there and they were all so happy for me and welcomed me aboard.
There are 21 trainees in class and all of them seem pretty cool. To make a long story short, I feel part of a team now and the first couple of days I mostly stayed off to myself. I mean, I still do have my moments where I am to myself, but atleast now I do talk to people. As with every group, there are cliques that are formed but you get that just about everywhere. I have been driving to work, I don't like driving as much as I thought. It's exhausting, especially when you have to not only watch how you drive but how other reckless drivers drive.
oh yeah, my car overheated yesterday evening as I was on my way home, luckily I was not too far from home. My car got towed to DarCars Chrysler this morning. I felt like I was sending my child off to the hospital as I watched her get towed away. She made it to the dealership safely though. I don't understand, they supposedly checked all the recall issues and the cooling system. This car is only about a year old and hasn't had many owners, so what's the problem? Well, I am back on Metro, which sucks because that means I have to leave out at 6 a.m. instead of 7 a.m. I haven't been to work late not one day. I do miss STC in the sense that we were scheduled later, so why was I always late and I lived closer? Anyway, so much more has been happening in my personal / emotional life, but I have to save a bit for me, can't reveal all of me, you know?
I am soon to have a career, I am happy about that. I mean, this is what i went to school for. I got my ID/Swipe card last week and we are to receive our uniforms some time this week, so if all goes well September 26th I will become Officer Elias. Yay! I just pray GOD grants me the courage and strength with this job. I know I am a strong person but sometimes my weaknesses peak through. It amazes me at times, lastweek, actually day two seemed very overwhelming to me and I tell you, one day at the academy seems like one week. By day two I went to the commander and I expressed how I felt. I told her I wasn't a quiter but that I was having doubts, she expressed to me that I should go on the housing units and wait and see if after some time on the unit if I felt it was for me or not. This came after we all walked on a unit. I was so freaked out. I had been on a unit before but not as an officer in training, just as an intern. Its a different perspective. All I kept hearing was "rookie" That kind of behavior is expected though. They don't know you, and basically you have to earn their respect. The commander asked me if I was ok, she must've noticed how stressed I became. I later found out that the unit reacted the way they did because she is commander of the special response team, they are mostly in charge of shake downs and defusing unruly inmates. Yesterday, we all had the opportunity to spend most of the day on a housing unit. I spent time one of the women units also it was on one of the smaller units. This one only held 41 residents out of 50. My classmate was across the hall in a mirror unit which only had 39, the rest pf the class where all upstairs on different units. Some on the bigger ones, that held 100 (males) The officer that I sat with was my old school mate at UDC. She was very informative and I learned alot. Overall, I had a great experience. The hours are long but the [ay is good and so are the benefits. Although I am dealing with other issues emotionally, I know I have to leave that at the door and stay focused, focused, focused!

What's my password again?

I cannot believe that I completely forgot my password. Not that I have anything interesting to share at this time, although I do have alot on my mind and have been dealing with alot lately, but its going to be okay.
I am at work and can't concentrate.

To be continued...

To a very special friend...

I see your pain and I know that deep inside your world is in turmoil. I want to just reach out and hold you and tell you that you are safe and that everything will be alright. Somehow, I feel that isn't enough. You know how I feel about you, and I pray for you daily. You are strong and I know you will pull through. I'm not upset, just feel a lot better. I now have complete understanding of things. I am glad you opened up, never in a million years did I think I would ever see this side of you. As much as you fight against it. Don't feel bad, Its no one's fault. I have faith that things will work out. I am always your friend. All I have left to say is live, be free and enjoy what life has to offer. You faced most of your life alone, you no longer have to be alone, I am your friend and I am here for you. I love you deeply.

HB.

Here I go, here I go

Here I go again, girls what's my weakness? MEN! Ok, then chillin', chillin' mindin' my business...
Sorry, I was having a Salt n' Pepa moment there...lol I have a feeling that I will be posting on here often. I will utilize this thing-a-majig as a form of therapy. Speaking of which, I have been viewed as a weirdo to some. I am really intrigued by human behavior. Sometimes I find myself saying things like "I can't believe he or she did that" or "what is wrong with people?" It should come as no surprise. We are human and we aren't perfect. We are supposedly the children of Adam and Eve, can you imagine what we would be like if we were literally their kids. How could they ever keep track of every one of their children? I think we would pretty much be in the same state we are in. I like to use this line on my mother from time to time. I tell her that we aren't really our parents children, they are borrowing us for the time being. Anyhow, one of my ex- co workers/school mate said she could see me liking Psychology. She said that people who find Psychology interesting are weirdo's as all Psychology professors are weirdos. I remember when I first filled out my college application, I know that I wrote down that I wanted to study Forensic Science and Psychology, well at my sweet ole UDC they place you in the first major you list. If you write that you'd like to major in Political Science, dog grooming, and/or Biology, guess what your major will be? Yeah, PS. They don't have time to figure out what you want to do with your undecisive life, i mean indecisive. You can always change your major at a later date.
I kind of miss school, I am so, so, so, so excited that they are reviewing a Masters program in social work at UDC. I excepted that it wasnt going to happen anytime soon and that I would end up at Howard, not that there is anything wrong, but I don't have Howard money. I love my UDC. I used ot look down on it but now I find myself being proud of the school I graduated from. Yeah, our school mascot is the rising phoenix. People got jokes about that. I say whatever, they talked about Jesus, why should I be surprised now. Speaking of Jesus, this line just came to mind, I've seen it on bossip.com "Jesus take the wheel" they usually post this off the wall photo of a celeb or just regular people that have made some sort of headline or maybe something so outrageous that merrits recognition. It reminds me of what I say to myself or softly out loud ( hold up does that make sense?) I say Jesus, please be my back seat driver or front seat passenger.
So, today is my Friday. I have to get up early tomorrow morning so that I can go to DMV down Georgetown. I will update ya'll on that. Will call went alright tonight, well except that some people's tickets were not printed for some reason. Also, Calvin was early. He drove around the block and waited outside for me. I am glad that we have the car back. That's another blog, stay tuned. It's not that interesting, but since I am on here now I will blog on!

PS. Does my photo look like something out of the movie The Grudge ? What do ya'll think? Yes, Cailtin, I am calling you out, Ya'll is YOU because no one has this blog's address but you for the time being...lol Pass it on to anyone interested, but please don't laugh at me, laugh with me! Never gonna give, never gonna give up on IMAGAnaaaaaaashun! Yep, thats the remix! Performed daily at your favorite box office!!

So here I am...

OMG, I can't believe I am here!! The pressure is on like an unopened bottle of Rock Creek Peach soda. Now I know what it feels like. Caitlin, your day has come. You finally get to lay eyes on my INSANITY. This is my first "real " blog. I mean, I have myspace, but no one really reads it. So what makes me think anyone will read this one? Well, I know one thing, someone better after all I went through to get this account up and running.
So anyway, I just got a little side tracked here because I just got off the phone with Calvin AND I have to pee. Today is a sad day here at the box office, I say this because we no longer have access to Myspace or Facebook. Just when I was getting into this flair sh!t. What have they turned me into? It's so addictive!! Well, what now? I guess I have to blog about my observations from where I sit.
Hold on tight, when I get inspired I will break Norbit down and shed some light on the deeper message. I'm such a softy, lol.
I still have to pee and my feet and hands are getting cold.
The vultures are on me hard (Zac and Caitlin) so I have to hurry up and finish this.
The Museum of Crime & Punishment is open now and I noticed an employee in a bright orange jumpsuit wiping down the windows. Interesting, but I don't know how I feel about that right now. I mean, DC Jail inmates who don't have family to pick them up go home in Blue uniforms and while they are incarrcerated some wear Orange colored uniforms.
I can't wait to go in and see what its all about. That's my area of interest. Oh, yeah all my holds are clear and I finally get to pick my degree up. About damn time! After 5 years of snow, sleet, ice, rain, shine and code red alerts, I am the first to graduate from college (on my mother's side) on my dad's side I think I am like the third or fourth.
I've been a little more active in putting applications out there. I realized I am stopping me from doing better. I know I don't want to stay where I am forever. I want better, so i know I have to do better.
Calvin is at Cornelius' body shop picking up the car, I hope now that the scratches and the dents are out it can stay that way for a while. Yay! I have a ride home tonight, I hope he isn't late picking me up.
Here comes a man in a dark blue suit and royal blue tie, he's picking up tickets for tonight and LAH just handed them to him, what's so interesting about that...well hell if I know. I was asked to write something and that's what I am doing.
So this lady just called me and she asked if the Screwtape Letters still running, I said, "No, it has ended" * Long pause* Maybe she didn't hear me, but she heard when I answered the phone, right? What's wrong with people? Why are people so picky about where they sit? I mean, it's not like its a car or a home they are purchasing. You sit there between 90 mintes-3hours tops. People, they are only seats! Well, I'm sure its more than that to them but anyway.
Ok, they are back, i have to go. I am experiencing Dejavu here :O)