Where I've been...

I finally left STC, Sunday, August 23rd was supposed to have been my last day, but some personal matter had came up early that morning. I do some crazy things at times, so crazy that outside people would never believe it if I told them. (Nothing illegal) Anyway, rewind<<<<<<<>>>>>>August 25th was my first day at the Academy at Correction Corporation of America (CCA) at D.C.'s Correctional Treatment Facility (CTF) . I said what I did my first day of College. I said to myself, "What have you gotten yourself into?" I saw everyone I had worked with during my internship there and they were all so happy for me and welcomed me aboard.
There are 21 trainees in class and all of them seem pretty cool. To make a long story short, I feel part of a team now and the first couple of days I mostly stayed off to myself. I mean, I still do have my moments where I am to myself, but atleast now I do talk to people. As with every group, there are cliques that are formed but you get that just about everywhere. I have been driving to work, I don't like driving as much as I thought. It's exhausting, especially when you have to not only watch how you drive but how other reckless drivers drive.
oh yeah, my car overheated yesterday evening as I was on my way home, luckily I was not too far from home. My car got towed to DarCars Chrysler this morning. I felt like I was sending my child off to the hospital as I watched her get towed away. She made it to the dealership safely though. I don't understand, they supposedly checked all the recall issues and the cooling system. This car is only about a year old and hasn't had many owners, so what's the problem? Well, I am back on Metro, which sucks because that means I have to leave out at 6 a.m. instead of 7 a.m. I haven't been to work late not one day. I do miss STC in the sense that we were scheduled later, so why was I always late and I lived closer? Anyway, so much more has been happening in my personal / emotional life, but I have to save a bit for me, can't reveal all of me, you know?
I am soon to have a career, I am happy about that. I mean, this is what i went to school for. I got my ID/Swipe card last week and we are to receive our uniforms some time this week, so if all goes well September 26th I will become Officer Elias. Yay! I just pray GOD grants me the courage and strength with this job. I know I am a strong person but sometimes my weaknesses peak through. It amazes me at times, lastweek, actually day two seemed very overwhelming to me and I tell you, one day at the academy seems like one week. By day two I went to the commander and I expressed how I felt. I told her I wasn't a quiter but that I was having doubts, she expressed to me that I should go on the housing units and wait and see if after some time on the unit if I felt it was for me or not. This came after we all walked on a unit. I was so freaked out. I had been on a unit before but not as an officer in training, just as an intern. Its a different perspective. All I kept hearing was "rookie" That kind of behavior is expected though. They don't know you, and basically you have to earn their respect. The commander asked me if I was ok, she must've noticed how stressed I became. I later found out that the unit reacted the way they did because she is commander of the special response team, they are mostly in charge of shake downs and defusing unruly inmates. Yesterday, we all had the opportunity to spend most of the day on a housing unit. I spent time one of the women units also it was on one of the smaller units. This one only held 41 residents out of 50. My classmate was across the hall in a mirror unit which only had 39, the rest pf the class where all upstairs on different units. Some on the bigger ones, that held 100 (males) The officer that I sat with was my old school mate at UDC. She was very informative and I learned alot. Overall, I had a great experience. The hours are long but the [ay is good and so are the benefits. Although I am dealing with other issues emotionally, I know I have to leave that at the door and stay focused, focused, focused!